The rain has returned and so has my childlike giddiness. I LOVE the rain it makes me feel all cozy and snugly. However, not sure why, but I have had the AMAZING urge to clean house. I have been it doing since I got up this morning. Finished the laundry room, and now working on the family room. Really, it's not so much cleaning as it is rearranging, which I seem to be REALLY good at, let me tell you why. Jason really hardly says anything any more when he comes home and the couch is somewhere else then when he left in the AM, or when there is a new piece of art on the wall, or the dresser in the master bedroom is now in the closet, or when the boy's rooms are back to the arrangements they were in 2 weeks ago. I rearrange everything ALL THE TIME! I am always changing something here. New paint, new light fixture, new whatever. I HATE it when something stays the same longer then a few months. Jason said something awhile ago that really caught me. "When I come home, I never know what is going to be painted or moved, something is different almost every day" That made me laugh because it's so true. I think it is safe to say, I get very uncomfortable with comfortable. ohhhh....that was a good ramble. check out: http://www.healthybetta.com/ifbettas.html

What is it with me and sunflower seeds?

I totally forgot I had this thing, geeze. But Jason started a blog and figured I should pick mine back up. I need the outlet. So I gotta work tonight. WONDERFUL! I hate work sometimes and there are other times that I don't mind it so much, but normally I just hate it. Gabe starts school on monday, hooray! Oh look both of the kids are fianlly asleep.

I got to spend some much needed time last night with long lost Alycia and Adam. I told them that they were the cutest things since kittens. (I think I like cats)

I am not doing very well with this, am I?

Today we had playgroup.........it was so much fun! Kristen and I are really getting along well, and can't wait to go out and have some adult time. Mellow is doing better, I think I said that in my last entry. The kids and I had to go get Jason from work tonight around 9:30. that sucked..............

I hate mornings

Last night was a really tough night for me. Mellow, got up on the couch and an hour later when he went to get backdown, he couldn't. This morning he can barely walk. I called Kristen to see what she thought, because she is a vet. She said it could be that he just pulled a muscle, but it is nothing to mess around with, so we need to get him in asap. But the thing is, most vet clinics don't take payments, and we don't have the money for all the things I know they are going to want to do. So I am inbetween a rock and a hard place.Do I like him suffer until I can get the money, or do we bite the bullet and not pay some bills this month so we can get him in. I don't know......... MyMellow, please be alright.........

Live: Overcome..........................an amazing song.....................I get lost in this song whenever I hear it................ahhhhhhh................ OH MY GOD! My two faorite songs right in a row! How lucky am I? Staind: Epipahny.............Life is good. .............because it's always rainging inside my head...forget all the things I should have said.......................DEAR GOD Erykah Badu.......the music Gods are looking down on me today.

I miss her. The clavicaled beauty, as I have been called. Kristen and I both miss the days of "Me". So I think I am doing this to show others how a day in my life can be. Or maybe just so I can feel important. But either way, this is going to be my place, where I reside. That is all for today.